Thank you.

I will remember you.
Last night.
And your last few words before you closed the car door.

For a long time to come.

Luna Sea - I For You.



Romaji I For You

nee hontou wa dare mo nee ai senai to iwarete
kowagari no kimi to de ai yatto sono imi ni kizuita

kizutsuku tame ima futari deatta nara kanashi sugiru yo

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai...
kitto dake hontou no kimi no sugata wo motomete

mada bukiyou ni warau ne mada kanashimi ga ni au kara

kimi to de au tame dake ni sou umareta nara kaerareru ka na...

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
kizutsuki sugita kedo mada ma ni au yo
kokoro kara kimi wo ai shiteru
kimi ni furu itami wo nugutte agetai subete I for you

kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
kimi no egao itsu mo mitsumeraretara

kokoro kara kimi wo ai shiteru
kimi ni furu hikari wo atsumete agetai subete I for you


Translation I For You

Hey, the truth is that someone said, hey, that I can't love anyone
I finally realized the significance of meeting you, who is so nervous

If we met one another in order to get hurt, then this is just too sad

I want to tell you something from my heart...
I'm just looking for your true form

You still smile awkwardly, sadness still suits you

If I was born in order to meet you, then I wonder if I can change?...

I want to tell you something from my heart
I'm hurt a little bit too much, but I'll still be on time
I love you from my heart
I want to wipe all of the pain away that falls on you, I for you

I want to tell you something from my heart
If only I can always look upon your smile

I love you from my heart
I want to gather up all of the light that falls on you, I for you

I still miss you.

Wall after wall,
I watch them as they fall,
Not a moment for my eye to blink,
Not a second for me to think.

I will persevere.

had i known before what i knew today, i would have drew the line and just kept my bloody distance.

I do not know how apathetic ppl who know nothin of logic, maturity, consideration - technically zero EQ - n who probably can't understand half the things i'm sayin here, can manage to stay alive for so long when they step all over other ppl's toes and lay d blame anythin and everythin on anyone and everyone except themselves.

You think that maybe its just a phase,so you keep silent, swallow all nonsense hurled at you with gritted teeth and fervently pray deep inside for these ppl to either pass out of sight and bother someone else or at least accumulate some dust of maturity or intelligence or wisdom after a month or two but noooo.... These ppl blame u for not lookin where you're walkin when they walk right into a very stationary you.

Yes, we have a lot of ppl like that its just a matter of whether you're unlucky enough to happen to know any of them. Literally speaking, its like hurling yourself at a parked car and then pressing charges against d car owner for reckless drivin and demandin for compensation. No, it isn't very different at all. Dear lord, what is the world coming to these days? Save me from this balderdash, please, before i pop an artery.

At the end of the day, you really are on your own.

its hard enough making a living. must living be that hard as well?

Flapping their wings, the times moved quietly
Towards the tiny sky
Bringing a farewell to this morning
On the wind

We probably pretended not to notice...
We frolicked innocently together, but
In some sense, we were looking at this moment

Smile for me again, don't worry
You're quiet today, aren't you?
I want to go back to then, but...
We'll meet again, thank you
Until then...
Goodbye

The scattered flower petals laugh
Kiss me one last time for decoration!
I feel like I'll cry if you keep quiet, so
Please

Smile for me again, don't tremble
Look up
When a new season comes
We'll meet again, thank you
For loving me...
Goodbye

I can't really believe it. I hope it all goes well. x.x

We decided on a band name - NixSiners. Its actually SixNiners with the S and the N swapped XD cool or what? thanks to kei, the drummer.

I just swapped guitar for vocals, I can't believe it. LOL. I mean, yes there were all those narcissistic moments at the karaoke sessions but still... I didn't think I would actually have the balls to tell my bandmates that I want to try out for vocals instead since we are having trouble finding for one who can commit and since I've been standing in for vocals for so many sessions anyway. LOL.

I was working halfway on our first original song for the band - Veins but I lost my muse and I have trouble finding the right melody for the verse as well as the right words to fit in x.x Currently the verse sounds alot like the chorus and that sucks. Hyde-kamisama, wherefore art thou? I pleadeth with thee to bless thy devoted follower/fangirl with thy godawesome song-writing skillz.

LOL.

Anyways, we're gonna try to participate in the audition for this local J-rock event in Malaysia and we need to get a band photoshoot done and I have to find pictures of L'arc or somethin to give the photographer an idea of what we want. We also need to decide on our dressing for the photoshoot x.x And eventually the gig.

The auditions right after my finals, I think x.x I hope I can juggle both band and studies and not flop >.<

Argh... I need to find the right laruku photos to send to the photographer for our photoshoot. I'm tempted to just send him everything. LOL. I wanted something like in the Nexus PV but the suits are expensive T_T Currently we've sorta settled for black shirt, red tie and jeans... or somethin like that.


*genki!~* XD

So sweet of my friends to remember yesterday, although I think Facebook probably did 90% of the reminding work but that's okaaaay. LOL.

Very lovely birthday this year though. The presents! LOL. Pleasantly surprising and totally unexpected. ^.^


Its been a pretty eventful two decades and sometimes, when I look back, I don't quite know how I made it through but I know for sure that I wouldn't be here today if it weren't for my friends, family and loved ones. Definitely.

I've got a wedding to attend this Saturday and I'm going to be the bridesmaid. @_@ Can you believe it? Nicole =/= Bridesmaid. Like seriously. x.x But heck, its for my "sister" whom I've known since I was still in primary school. Can't believe its already been more than 11 years since we first shared the same carpool. Back then we were lil kids being stuffed into this lil sedan with 6 other kids if I remember correctly. LOL. And now, she's getting married! I find it hard to believe at times, Lol. But yeah. Hope hers works out and that they have a good one. My "brother-in-law" is one lucky bloke, definitely =)

And.... my band's getting along quite alright at the moment, never made more progress in such a short time. I suggested Speranza for the band name. It means hope in Italian. (thanks to the anime Romeo x Juliet which Tasha recc-ed. The episode titles had latin names in it, thats where I found it XD)

Speranza... very apt actually. Wonder what the others in the band think of it though. =/



Time ticks.
As Life ebbs along to Fate's flow.
Everchanging, inconsistent tempo.
Where do we go?
Where do we go?
We'll never know.

fucking unhappy.

I took a step back, away and out of living, just for a moment. Even if my life seeps away with every tick of the second hand on the clock.

I looked at my own journey and where I am now. I tried to look ahead. I know that there is so much that I can do. If I would just try. And put my heart to it. But everytime I look up ahead and try to make my way to where my heart calls out to, I am violently shaken and jerked back into my grounded reality by these invisible chains that shackle me to what is deemed to be the path I am supposed to tread. Or rather, this tree that hardly provides shelter yet I am chained to it day and night.

Time passes by so slowly...

I await the day where I muster enough strength to break free of these chains and spread my wings to soar to greater heights.


I only hope I last long enough to see that day.

Such a fool... Oh... Hello my darkness
Such a lonely face, such a lonely face
Your shadow in my place
Such a fool... Oh... Hello my darkness






Forget those who diss GLAY for being mainstream. They sure know how to make music better than any of those mainstream crap we get in English nowadays.


Edit: Sleep-deprivation has been rendering me incapable of spelling properly. =.= zzz.

=)